Share ur thoughts,feelings,moments on xpam!

[memo0o]

i would like every 1 of u to talk .. say every thing in yr heart , what u feel , what u hate (in w3 of course) , every thing about us .. other mods ..any thing u like n hate reasons to quit , come back , hating some body , be pissed off , general points of view , i guess after saying so u will feel much better.

and .. that goes to all the inactive mods as well.

dont get it wrongly, n dont spam here other users respect all.

( the main point of creating this thread , that i wanna know these things i ve just asked , if its ok to share. )

a lil thing more .. that might take time from u to write it all .. dont be lazy pl0X =)

ty for taking it seriesly guys

plz make sure u read imaginary post. ty

[eXodus]

An interesting thread, Memo. Let's talk ...

It begins with, " lust ".

I had begun as a " Hacks worker ", willing to " hunt down " cheaters. ( The thing I had hated the most, at that time. ) No matter how stupid this may sound, but that was " my lust " - " Justice ".

However, there're other types. - You, alone, know ...

In time, there was a, umm, progress. From a Hacks section moderator and w3 channel operator into a " responsible " ( Hmm, was I ? ), server administrator. " This is moooost fortunate ! " Someone would've said ... But, not me. Actually, the only thing I had set in motion to stay, was sadness.

" He is a lunatic ! Nobody would give up that kind of power ! "

Power, huh ? How pathetic ...

" Ahh, that's it ! I gather those people WILL respect me as soon as I become SOMETHING. Yes, no doubt ! Can't wait to become an authority here ! "

People thinking this way are nothing more than miserable weaklings.

Back to my, " sadness ". Well, the good thing was it wasn't an " everlasting " one.

Thoughts ... I've re-thinked about everything which occured, from the beginning till that moment. Even though there were " glorious moments ", my conclusion was ... : Blackness. Odd enough, huh ? Naaah ... Frankly, that's how I've felt, during " the period ". ( )

To cut it, I got demoted two weeks ago ... Baaah, all that " suffering ", I mean, it's, gone ! I'm back to normal ! * Laughing. *

However, believe it or not, it wasn't easy to get rid of " it " - you know what I mean. To be frank, I, literally, had to BEG. ( God, that was " low " from me. ) Ehh ...

But ... Freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeedom ! ( )

Okay, this ends here.

To those ... - They know who. - " What is it that you really want ? "

Peace, love and God bless you.

[Palec]

However, believe it or not, it wasn't easy to get rid of " it " - you know what I mean. To be frank, I, literally, had to BEG. ( God, that was " low " from me. ) Ehh ...

Well, it was the same thing with me. I was so frustrated and I did bad things. (already told I am sorry)

About things you've mentioned about. Power looks like something special for some people, but it's just an illusion. Dont waste your time for getting it, especially here. Cause along with power come many dutys and then you want to be fair with people you work with and spend more time here, more and more. You are mod of small forum section, then you want to prove you are good person to be there and u sacrifice your free time, after that you get new promotion, lets say for "operator", same story, more and more time, then "supermod", "hacks worker" ... people want to promote you again, but you are frightened, bored and you refuse that. After some time, being powerful means nothing to you... you see that you've damaged relations with people you care about and sacrificed too much time for the forum and things, that wont be necessary in your real life (mb besides people you met here, you learn something from them). Then you want to change something, want to live your life, but you are ... an "admin", "mod", "hacks worker"... you dont want to disappoint your friends with your "low-activity" here.. and you feel like you cant breathe. But there's a way, you can quit ! But NO! They dont want to let u go. You are frustrated, you start to flame your friends, only because you want to quit those functions... its pretty twisted. I wrote it fast so it may be little confusing. Thats what I feel.

P.S. good thread, we can talk about tough things

[RockNation]

Well ... in the first place I'm not such an "old user" but ...here it is:
When I first came at this forum I came thinking of helping people as much as I can and yes when I joined I wanted to be admin, so I could be respected and to have the power that normal users didn't had, well to be important, but now I don't realy and honestly don't care much for my rank/function. In time Is tarted to make friends here, thing I don't do in my real life, actualy I can count on the fingers of 1 hand the frinds from real life. Anyway I tryed many times to quit, leave this but I couldn't. Why? Cuz here I can still help people, thing that makes me kinda happy knowing that I can do something. And as Palec said, untill few months, I've dedicated all my time to the forum and server (as some of you know that I was almost non-stop online) thing that realy didn't helped me in RL. Had a fight with my parents, moved away from home, came back lost some friends, etc. Now I just came here to relax, to forget about my problems from RL for a few hours when I stay here (server + forum) and to help people who need help as well.
I usualy don't write things about me but maybe it will make me feel much better or it won't.
Hmm the thing I hate the most at w3 are the players that can't speak normal with you or with someone that is "inferior" to them and start swearing, curseing, insultein or offending just so cuz they have fun doing so or to show that they are great or starting to say that to be mod/admin on forum is easy etc but they don't come to prove, instead of that they ask for promotion tt. This kind of people I hate. About the game I don't hate it. I love all type of games (since I am a gamer) except GTA and Quest type games.
Anyway I hope this thread is going to be calm and peacefull instead of beeing spammed and people tos tart flameing again as they prefer doing then to have a decent conversation.
That's almost all about me, more I won't say.

[devicem]

First came here to look for an account change , but heh that didn't work out the way I imagined it, who would care less for some random guy posting in forums for it anyway pff.

Than there was this so called "Elf" guy, some tournaments stuff involved only god knows what happened to it , after that as much as it is hard to believe I offered some help every now and than to those needy, tech support here and there, not to mention some argues ahem opinion share along with other members Elf, Marshall etc. than the next thing you know you are moderator in DotA Allstars, than I was like : "huh?" Apparently I was polled to be one suggested by Elf himself in the private section for admins, bah I wonder at that time if someone actually asked me "if I want to become one", but that wasn't the issue, because there I was...

As much as I didn't want to be moderator, obligations and perhaps reason didn't let me argue much about it. As some of you may know at that time DotA was my passion, so as soon as I entered #ss the real troubles began. I was mostly tired of playing with average players (enemies and allies alike) so I just took the idea to make it a better place, one that north had at that time, but I didn't realize how arrogant and stupid sometimes people are, some people was eager to help me ( the ones that felt exactly like me ) where others were eager to destroy it ( the ones that actually couldn't enter ) and whined all the time let's not forget that, but as much as hard as it got, the more people tried to apply so we were kinda satisfied, the true issue why we left the place was many of us professional gamers weren't fond of the delay that was inevitable on bnet, so we moved to GGC ( a platform which simulates lan games ) therefore resulting in 0 delay, what more can you do when such conditions were offered, people started to migrate there so did I, it was quite better I must admit but still missed the old place, what the hell now who cares. Just wanted to clarify so that you wouldn't post shit like "devicem left us to GGC" and stuff like that where your tong is always quicker than your mind.

For the next part of the story tune in next Tuesday same time exclusively on eurobattle.net.

[Ykc]

Hm .... the reason i came to this server was becouse i stopped playing CS in 1
very good team and wanted to quit it. so due to inactivity i started to play w3.
And after some time i started to remember all buildups and i always knew hom much gold/wood i will have if i do something so it was easy for me to menage gold/wood. so i started to watch mass replays and tried to use as many strategies as i saw. then i saw some imba clan OsT(old school gaming) so i wanted to do a test game in order to enter it. And Marshall got me to play vs Ancient-Priest aka Ice now and first game i lost playing und vs hum couse i tried quick expo and he got me there. second game i played orc(couse i was mainly playing orc then vs human couse as elf i always lost vs good human) and we played 1 of best games i ever played, i was winning but i did 1 mistake(couse of not having much experience) i upgraded bloodlust to shams and i lost . Nvm Cells told Marsh that i played good so i was in clan.

And that was rly different time then now on xpam. back then Clans rly mattered couse of few very strong clans: HG,PbT,BoS... and it was honor to be in it. while i was playing i was so nervous that i cant explain ... I dont think that people could feel that way now and that xpam time is lost forever.

Then after some time i practiced more and more and got entirely dedicated to Elves. and i started playing in tours and got one 3rd place and one 4th(both time lost to winners of tour)

by that time i tried to help as much as i could on forum and organising tours and some other stuff regarding hacks part.

so after some time they asked me if i would want to help with hacks part and i said yes .

``Happy,Moon,Dav,Nooby,Obey,Kiza,Iv3k,Serial,Weedm an,Herceg,Aca, AncientPriest,Palec,J.Ahmedovski,Kisiu_PL,Jostavo, Medo,Nery..... omg i know i forgot someone but if i did plz pm me with some rude language and i will edit here

[memo0o]

hmm .. since our Mods r ignoring us :S lets make it public ? who wants to tell us his story.

[DA_SASQUA4]

Sava Nikolov Kolev's story (thats me )
it all started in ...the end of 2005 i think as a fr told me about this server for w3. i didnt start posting and visiting the forum from the begining but made an acc in february (as u can c from my profile). ive been playing for months but now im inactive from .. dunno actually 3-4 months. i just lost interest in the game and now i play WoW. i think im loosing interest in this game cuz the server is free so there are many bugs, player limit for less lag and freezes.

i rly like this place and dunno if im ever gonna leave the forum.
reading my first posts i realise how much i've changed myself since feb 2006 - changed for good mby. i like the ppl here, i have a few friends and mby i will visit them when i get 18 and a driving license.
a thing i regret doing - offending {BIH}Sorlag long time ago. rly stupid from me :@
something i wanna ask - WHERE IS FIREZZZZ??? did he leave, do u have any idea whats up with him?

my post sound nearly the same as the "what do u think about the others" thread but nvm. a nice theme.

to all of you - be yourselves, be happy, be sexy and clever - this is what the others around u like

[Tito]

Well... I started playing here 3-4 years ago. First time when I played this STUPID game was with my friend TOKA.

In that time i used to play age of empires , and I was pretty good in that. I told him to find me some good " strategic games " and he did .

What happend ? We started to play ( that was roc w3 , not tft one ). He choised some race - UNDEAD ...

I was pretty surpriced and I didn't know any of races so I went random. I get orc , he was undead.

I started buliding myself same as age of empires , made a ton of peons , and bulit a lot of towers.

I made a lot of gold mines ( I also make hero FS , and choised the second magic ).

Buliding towers , just like that I saw that I am able to see Toka's base. I bulit few more towers ( I allready had about 500 towers at the back :S).

So when Toka saw towers at his base , he was pretty surpriced , he wasn't surpriced from the towers , he was surpriced from them number.

He had dl lvl 10 , dk lvl 9 and lich lvl 7 ... He tried to kill ALL my towers , lost all of his army/heroes and left the game .

After that he show me that there is a server , on who I can play that game. I instaled it at home and played , played , played.

I usually played solo games , except few at games on north with Toka. ( He shew me north after a while ).

And when I saw another server , I tought that I can play there too to meet some new " gosus " who I can beat.

So first I started to play on a shared account with Toka. Than I opened a new account and I made him 32lvl ...

I can't remember to the stats. When I see that I am " expirienced enough " I came back to XPAM , and I started playing again here.

( I went to north cuz some guys flamed me , that I am noob or smthing like that ...

I didn't even know what do that " NOOB " means , but anyway when I saw the word " F**K " I figurated that its smthing offendive).

When I came here , I started playing on few accounts ( that was before that " BIG " restart).

Bestdotaplayer , Zuljaisjerk , Gosu-human , Tito_is_back , Samo_jugosloven ....

I can't even remember them names anymore, cuz I didn't use them long time ago.

At the same time I also played on shared accounts with Toka - immortal_noob , naga-sea-witch , Iwantmorebugs ...

When I understand that there gonna be a " HUGE " restart , and all account's stats gonna be deleted , I sold all my accounts.

Most of them I sold to Gorgi. All my accounts for 500e. After the restart , I started playing dota at most...

I was pretty good , won a lot of games 1 vs 5 , 2 vs 5 .... Durring the summer , I had a lot of free time , so I started playing PG on north again.

I made a lot of accounts + 40 lvl , with deferend stats. Than I god borred just of playing , and I came to XPAM for a little chat with my friends.

Entered in " PBT " clan , and played on few accounts.

If I remember well - arrestedbycup , mitkotosev , tito_is_back , about 200 games on bigbadspirit ...

Than I played once with nery, I beated him and he reported me for lag abuse

( I was playing on my accounts mitkotosev , probably someone still remember that lvlupped account ), I got noted for that report.

After a while I played with some Bulgarian guy, the game was normal , my ping was constantly 90-100 , but I got reported with 3 SS.

I had about 25 ss with my good ping , I posted tham but miss.Basiora still banned me .

I have to say tnx for that , cuz if he didn't do that , I would probably never stop laddering as I did now. ( mitkotosev's stats were 200:7 or smthing ).


When I got banned , I still played some cg games with friends , dotas etc.

And I was little ANGRY to those who were posting into the " hacks " without the all proofs , so I kept saying " you need replay " , " you need victory screen " , ...

etc. After a while( I was doing that for fun , as you all should do it ) , I get private message from blue_system , would I like to be moderator in " hacks " ,

I answered that I will be honoured , so here am I .


Bljaak , I got borred of writting so long story



PS.Doovee , you are alowed to delete my post into the previous page


Edit: I've found myself a new color , also edited with " space " between the 2 lines , cuz someone who should wear glasses can't read it.

[eXodus]

etc. After a while( I was doing that for fun , as you all should do it ) , I get private message from blue_system , would I like to be moderator in " hacks " ,

I answered that I will be honoured , so here am I .

Huh ? I thought it was me, " recruiting " you, back then ... Not BLUE_SYSTEM. ( )

Anyway, I haven't talked about my beginning here ... Umm, actually, there's no need ... It begins with Shakar, my brother ... And you ought to read his " story ". ( )

[memo0o]

Huh ? I thought it was me, " recruiting " you, back then ... Not BLUE_SYSTEM. ( )

Anyway, I haven't talked about my beginning here ... Umm, actually, there's no need ... It begins with Shakar, my brother ... And you ought to read his " story ". ( )

no way we dont accept this :P right an essay plz !

[jostavo]

hi i am jostavo

btw i start here from 3-4 years when Rock and medo start play this from our cafe when we saw them play this game we lugh at first but after we learn it we keep playing i made alot of accounts from jostavo17 until now jostavo 20 but after some shit happned i stop join server or i dont be like fact but THE last thing i want 2 say i stay here 4 years is best of my life i rly alot of ppl here and respect them and i would like 2 meet them ;p and sure some ppl here if i meet them i will rly kill and fuck them hard

[Tito]

Huh ? I thought it was me, " recruiting " you, back then ... Not BLUE_SYSTEM. ( )

Nope , BLUE_SYSTEM wrote me 1 week before you did

Btw, exo write a big story, I miss ur english

[Warlord-orc]

Well... good to listen to ur stories, and here is mine:

I started playing here 5-6 months, well i played on Battle.net earlier, i alerady like all the people(not hackers), anyway lets continue..... I loved strategy games, i played Stronghold, Age of Empires and many others, then and idea just POPED out of me, i got happy looking for war3 cd's, this is a poor country so we buy cd's 1.50 euro, they are not original, stolen and cracked.
Anyway i got 2 cd's ROC and TFT i installed them and .... lol the version was the oldest one, then i started playing with my friends on lan, u know i made so much to beat Computer(Insane).. well u remember him i think , so we finally beat comp, 2v1, me and my friend against computer. We thought we got some experience and always grew stronger, but lol i understood later that playing with the computer all the time doesnt make sense, so i remembered the mighty BNet, i was so hopefull when i touched Alt + B and was waiting for it to connect, but suddenly, all my hopes were lost, it said "Unable to connect to Battle..... well u know what" and imediately started searching on the internet for cracks and things, then i found eurobattle.net, i got the installer, link was broken or smth so i just copied and searched on google, i got the installer and i installed it, but..... not working again, i tried things a thousand times and still nothing, so hopefully something happened...
One day something was corrupted by all thoose cracks that i used, i put the cd in the drive, started installing but it was stuck for hours and then i decided to buy another one, this one more good.
I got it tomorrow, i installed it, i got server installer and ran it. It was finished, i was hoping sooo much for it to work, as i was standing in fron of my screen, staring with somekind of fear, some words different came on the screen "Downloading Data Files...." i was sooo happy i cant describe it, so mu acc now is Warchief200 im somekind a noob and lame, but i try to be nice with ppl, so..... my story ends here, hope the future is better.
I dont use hacks, i have lvl 10 stats, i have limited how much to stay in the computer, my eyes, there is a problem, well i think its not important for u right now but... forget it..... now im chieftain(dont know why the accepted me) of clan DFLR, they are all friends to me, they are my friends, we are all the same, im chieftain and he's peon but we are the same .

And a message for the end, please dont use hacks, i soo much hate them, i dont like banning people but they make me angry, anyway i havent banned nobody by now, by "i havent banned" doesnt mean that "I" have banned them, but i have reported them, and the admins banned them.
So much words for nothing i bet, have a good life all, good luck in all aspects!

[imaginary]

Devica u never posted the next part of ur story..pff

Ok time for me now,xD

I didnt start from north,i first played warcraft on lans.And ofc i started from normal warcraft games,but i got carried away with DotA very soon.So almost since the beginnin,i play ONLY DotA.
I came on xpam in May 2005,got the link to download and install server from one of my best friends,GR clan chief.On June 2005 i registered in forum with this nick i still use here.I never had this on server though.i didnt post in forum since i joined,at first months i was only readin every post i found..so i read almost all threads xD,really =)
On server i met some greeks,who took me in their clan..my first clan,GDM.It was soon disbanded though,so on September 2005 after discussin it with my good friend we gathered most of the greeks we knew n made a new clan,GRC.He became chief.
On January 2006 the whole clan came here in forum,so thats when i started postin for good.And fact is,i did spam like hell since then and until summer of 2006 mostly..i was postin a lot more in my clan forum and less everywhere else,but soon i got involved into postin around..wasnt unfamiliar for me,since i was readin forum for quite some time.
On May 2006 we renamed our clan to GR,changin all our nicks to ancient greek names.A few days after that,i had a big argument with a couple clanmates..things went out of hand with this,and what followed was me leavin the clan,i took some insults after that and for quite some time,some very bad posts about me in clan forum followed etc..
This situation lasted till September 2006,when i made a public thread here in off topic to talk about it.And then another guy from GR made a thread to answer to mine.We argued there too,till Marshall closed it and even posted in clan GR forum tryin to solve the matter.One guy from GR clan was banned in forum n server,[GR]Achilles.
I moved on after takin a break of almost one month without postin at all in whole forum,and on server i joined devicem's clan,ds.I also became moderator of ss safelist project,which he "led".But that didnt last long..the whole idea got abbandoned after some months.I didnt last much as mod there either.
On December 2006 i left clan ds,because it became inactive.A couple weeks later,i re-joined clan GR..fact is,i cant stay out of this clan,cause its the one i love.And guys wanted me back,we left behind our past problems..didnt even discuss them.Achilles got unbanned..i changed nick again when i re-joined the clan,and till now i have [GR]Ares on server.
DotA players know me with [ds]Nioura,[GR]Nioura,or u_are_so_dead,my like "most famous" ones.
On forum,i was put into the poll for new moderator in off topic,also for DotA section.In off topic moderator poll i came third,but i was told that admins voted for me the most in their own poll,so i became moderator along with [BoS]DooVee that won the public poll.
In DotA section i won the public poll,and i became moderator there too.

Moments i dont forget..in forum,
Bad: When i got banned for a week by Elf,because of spammin n postin in other language on english section xD.Ban got lifted before week end though,probably due to someone helpin with that(never learned who though).
Also the whole "war of words" i participated in with the couple of GR clan members durin last summer.
Good:My whole spotlight here in off topic,i enjoyed it a lot.
Moments i dont forget..on server,
Bad:The few times i got disconnected durin important clan matches(tournaments or cws),resultin to my clan losin.
Good:The day when we re-formed clan GR with the ancient greek names.
Ppl i appreciate in forum or server..are too many,i feel great for many guys(a couple girls too ok ) i met in here,and i fear that if i start mentionin names i will miss someone.I dont want that,so those who know,just know..
Ppl i hate..none,absolutely none that i would say i hate,and for those i dislike a bit,its not for any serious reasons =)
I feel very good bein on xpam,both forum n server,its somethin i dont wanna leave.I wish i could be helpin ppl more here,but i dont have knowledge like others,razor_cro or moonstar especially,or even Inovate,i dont have technical knowledge on pc or internet problems,fixes n such..so i just try to have fun and give fun in here,by postin,readin,sharin.

Last i wanna say somethin for those who might not understand or like much the fact that i am "suddenly"(?!) moderator in two forum sections:
I didnt ask any admin to become moderator,i didnt think of it at all on my own mind,and i dont even have any admins in my contacts apart from Nery since only recently and only Elf before him.Nobody did to me any kind of favour..but that doesnt mean i am not glad and tryin to be responsible with what i got now.So i would aprreciate some pms and strange whispers on server to stop.Actually ppl,cause i believe some of u will read this,on server im nothin.Absolutely NOTHIN.I dont have any kind of power,i dont have any kind of privileges there,and i dont think admins even know my server nick.I dont care who u are,but u can stfu already..

Apologies for the huge post,maybe the biggest i ever wrote -.-